It all started when i was at the verge of giving my last theory paper for my First year MBBS exams that i felt the sadness creeping up my face,that prompted everyone to ask me"You did'nt do well??don't lie to us, brat!!"..I told them I din't do it well and I walked past my classmates..
I had indeed done well and that set in motion a myriad of emotions in me which i find it too awful to describe...
Of the 3 subjects we read in our first year,Biochemistry was the only one that made me feel at home..i din kno y..but still i felt i wasnt alienated from my school-time chemistry when i read biochemistry!!
I was almost nauseating everyday n puking almost very other day,wen I getta walk into the dissection hall of anatomy and i had this claustrophobic feeling when i stepped into the physiology laboratory where the tutors n lecturers where aiming for my blood to spill off the lancet prick..many a times I've felt,why the hell did i choose Medicine as my field of survival...I always had this biochemistry that would cheer me up as it explained to me patiently the various diseases that exist cohersively and claiming vehemently the base to be of biochem..i was so proud to read the metabloic processes which nobody else liked usually
.I felt I had the power to understand the ultimatge basic hapenings in every cell that stood testimony for all the clinical ires that any physician would love to diagnose with his clinical acumen that may/may not be complimented with technically sound skills..this particular subject which brought me a medal,a D,universal reputation of ruthlessness in dealing with others on intellectual plinths made me arogant n I still love the arrogance.
I was sad on the last day of the exam coz i was sure that am gonna pass the paper and i can never study biochem with thrill of exams spooking me( YES I can hear YOU makin faces at me now and making fun of me.but i dont care this one time)anymore.
Seven years from then..I was at the cross roads of the choices I had-anatomy,physiology,microbiology,forensic medicine,and biochem.though i love forensic tactics and i had everyone around me speakin highly and inflicting enormous praise on the subject as such and the job options at ur foot step,i started feeling something heavy sitting on me.Exactly the same way it sat on me when i had my opotions vary between MBBS and B.E from a terrifically reputed REC..i followed my head n let my heart down,takin up thr former.
This time i was staring at the gloomy clustrophobic surroundings in the air-conditioned AC hall...i decided to stick to what my heart told me.Atleast once in my life.Amidst all the hush hush voices that rose when "candidate Meenakshi sundaram has opted for Biochem ahead of Forensic"resonated across the hall.I knew i din wanna lose my love of my life"..yes I am in love,truly madly and deeply :)
